What i saw left me.. (I don't know what to say)
Yes, maybe it was just my brain's "creativity" at work
but the emotions that erupted were genuine
the brain's tired of thinking
but a fragment of my heart wants to go back every now and then
im telling myself move on..
and maybe if i remind myself enough, maybe i will
I don't wanna get stuck behind
coz there's no point when others don't seem to care anymore

no point.

im taking an emotional rollercoaster ride
just when things seems to be getting up
i find myself falling once again
when will this ride end?
or do i have to do something to make it stop?
or rather, will doing anything even help to make it stop?

im happy (:
and i just realised so many things..

i need to stop bothering people

some people will never understand
because they will never know what's going through your mind

为何还放不下？

The only reason you wont let go of what is making you sad is because it was the only thing that made you happy.

Sooner or later in life everyone discovers that perfect happiness is unrealizable, but there are few who pause to consider the antithesis: that perfect unhappiness is equally unattainable.

A great obstacle to happiness is to anticipate too great a happiness.


Most people are about as happy as they make up their minds to be.

i have been having weird dreams lately.

last week i dreamt that i was chasing a gigantic spider around the room with a spray can

last night i dreamt abt a cemetery and ghostly kids and LOLLIPOPS O.o

well as usual.. trying to see what they mean..

Spiders
To see a spider in your dream, indicates that you are feeling like an outsider in some situation. Or that you may want to keep your distance and stay away from an alluring and tempting situation. The spider is also symbolic of feminine power. Alternatively, a spider may refer to a powerful force protecting you against your self-destructive behavior. If you kill a spider, it symbolizes misfortune and general bad luck.

O: luckily i dont rmb killing it..

Cemetery
To dream that you are in a cemetery, indicates an end to a habit or behavior. You are experiencing a rebirth. More directly, the dream may symbolize sadness, unresolved grief or your fears about death.


Ghost
Ghosts are representative of something that is no longer obtainable or within reach. It indicates that you are feeling disconnected from life and society. Try to figure out what the ghosts wants or what it is looking for. Alternatively, the dream may be a calling for you to move on and abandon your outdated modes of thinking and behavior.

OMG damn freaky. and i dreamt tt the ghost kids were given some lollipops then they were damn happy.. ???????! maybe if they were satisfied.. it means im moving on?


Lollipop
To see or lick a lollipop in your dream, indicates surprises, new experiences and adventures. It also represents indulgence, sensuality and the pleasant aspects of life. Alternatively, the lollipop may be a pun for "sucker" and thus suggests that you need to proceed with caution in some relationship or situation.

LOLOL.

k.. tt's all for now. hope i get some happy dreams.. or rather.. hope i remember the happy dreams..

how different would things have been?
if i never..
work keeps piling up and up
its like its never ending
there's no use doing things early
because you just end up with more given to you
you've already taken away such an important part of my life
i can't screw the other part up