havent been in the mood to express any emotions
when something "good" happens
the people around all seem to be celebrating or at least expressing their joy
and i'd just try to give a weak smile to go along
(try not to be a wet blanket)
but am i genuinely happy?
i have no idea, coz i just don't feel a thing.

even when something bad happens,
i feel numb
and yet i feel guilty for being so unsympathetic
so i try to show concern (sounds so hypocritical)
but i don't even know if i really am

what's real? what's false?
how do i really feel?
i can't tell.
i THINK i care
but why doesn't it FEEL like it?

feeling really anti-social..
and tired of having to do things just to try to express how i should feel
i just wanna hide in one corner and enjoy the quiet
maybe its time for walks just like in the past

and i don't think i expressed myself right. again.